REBECCA HORWITZ, Creative Director, Calica Studio

February 7, 2017

Rebecca Horwitz is a Toronto-based artist and designer who co-founded Calica Studio. She opened up about wanting to shave her head, wishing she could be JLo (Don't we all wish we could be JLo?) and why we should be open to experimenting with our looks. 



First, I don't do anything. I don't put any product [in my hair], I use natural shampoo and I have never died it, ever. My mom's a hippie and she doesn't do anything with her hair, so that kind of wore off on me. And I'm lazy and broke. I like to change the cut of my hair. I like short hair and, long hair and I like all types of hair, on everyone. I wish I had all of it at the same time. I wish I could just switch it up like those old Barbies. I always dreamed of those Barbies -- you could crank out more hair. I thought that would be really cool. You could be like, "Today I'm gonna shave it off. Tomorrow I could have it down to my ass."


[When] I was too young to really care what I looked like (I was nine) my mom made me go to the hairdresser by myself. My best friend's sister had cancer and she had no hair and I was like, "She is the coolest, most beautiful teenage woman ever I want to look just like her." So, I go to the hairdresser and I told her to buzz off all my hair, just like her. He asked me, "Did your mom say this was okay?" and I was just like, "Yeah, definitely." He buzzed my whole head and I left strutting it out thinking, "Oh my God! I look beautiful!" Nine years old. And then my sister walked right past me on the street and I was like, "Um, Sophia. It's me. It's your sister." She freaked out, then my mom freaked out a little bit, but she just said, "How could I be mad at you for this?" All the girls and teachers at school thought I was a boy. I loved it. I love that I could shower and I just love that it was a head that just existed in the world. I was a head in the world. I kind of thought it was cool to be a tomboy. Another time in high school, I asked to cut off all of my very long hair and they gave me this early-2000s mom bob haircut, and I cried a lot. It was really sad. So I went to a new hairdresser and they fixed it and it looked okay.


We shouldn't be afraid [to shave our heads] but I think it's how other people look at us. If there are no mirrors and no one gave a shit, it wouldn't matter. I like to look at vintage Winona Ryder and vintage Sinead O'Connor and think "Fuck it." I think part of it is the grow out too. It's awkward. I think that's what I remember most as I shaved my head as a nine-year-old. The grow out was awkward. Not that I cared, that was the beautiful thing. 


I haven't had a haircut since I had it short. I just let it grow. I've had Megan (my design partner) cut my hair. I've never cut my own hair. Once I realized that I could cut my own hair into layers if I put my hair in a ponytail and just cut it, but that's not real. I just made that up and it was awful. But I think at the time I thought, "It's just kind of edgy!" I don't even think I got it recut. I do think that when I did go to a hairdresser to get it fixed they asked who cut my hair, and I said, "I did!" I was so proud.


Let it be.


-- As told to Untangled in Toronto, Canada. Photos by Amy Buck.





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